​Poetry, prose, chapbook, 40 pages, illustrated, from Bottlecap Press. I Am Trying To Fall In Love With Myself But Instead I Keep Falling In Love With Unemployed Noise Musicians Who Do Coke and Believe in the Power of Crystals is Emma Shepard’s first chapbook. Through essays, illustrations, and poems, she captures an array of feelings that present upon coming­-of­-age. The featured personal essays capture misadventures in online dating, teen angst, and having a thing for your therapist. Meanwhile, Shepard’s poetry and illustrations simultaneously explore dread, fear, and hopefulness.